{xL and xS [continued]}[24th March 1988]

[Redbook5:111][19880324:1207b]{xL and xS [continued]}[24th March 1988]

19880324.1207

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*Talking of lust,** and of innocent girls – being still partial to the flesh (I am happily married, after all), but at times[,] for reasons connected with pregnancy, child-birth, and breast-feeding, plus the unsuitability of various contraceptives, unable physically to consummate my love, I prefer fantasy to adultery: many months ago*** I think I wrote that if you misuse xS she fades away; my experience very recently**** has been that if you misuse her now she looks outraged, so that you stop, completely. Perhaps this is the difference between the Outer and the Inner Circle: I hope so.# (In practice, I find domestic bliss best in fantasy as well as reality: only my exploratory urges lead me astray.)#*

*[See last previous entry.]

**And I am intending to write next, Fiction 4, ?'[xL]', at the U~ position first time round.... <880522>

But see VI [], & [f]n[#** to last previous entry].

***III.[[Redbook3:103-104][19870404:1005l](INNOCENCE{:[xS]})[4th April 1987],] 103,

[[Redbook3:143-146][19870408:1218c](DREAMS OF xP & xS(:Dream of xP))[8th April 1987],] 144,

cf. [[Redbook3:93][19870402:2315]{Archetypes}[2nd April 1987],] 93,,

[[Redbook3:199-201][19870416:1730d]{Quality relationships (3): Dynamic Independence [continued(4)]}[16th April 1987],] 199

[& see especially [Redbook3:135][19870406:2300b](SEX AND GENDER [continued])[6th April 1987], where the actual words are ‘...if you treat her improperly, she simply fades away...’.]

****(within the past week)

#I think not <891008>

#*Sometimes I find my own openness rather embarrassing. (I would perhaps qualify this now, anyway....) <880522>

– If you love her, truly, with all of you, she loves you back: 'Lover, love love and be beloved'. (III [[Redbook3:135][19870406:2300b](SEX AND GENDER [continued])[6th April 1987]]). <891008> [& in [0]]

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