{Crisis Revisited? [continued (3)]}[23rd January 1991]

[Redbook8:183-184][19910123:1501e]{Crisis Revisited? [continued (3)]}[23rd January 1991]

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What strikes me is how far I have moved myself from the core of my experience, the beauty (and terror) of my crisis of a few years ago: so that (as in [2] it’s said:) ‘As we go down, we forget’.

This is a sign of a predominantly outer circle rotation, I believe. It has to do with the pressure of circumstances. In order to think and write this through, I had finally in desperation to raise my voice to a sick child, who is now coughing upstairs (actually I hear her footsteps coming down again: I’ve just read these last few lines to her, she says: ‘I hate you writing about me’, and after a quick cuddle[,] runs off. But I digress.) Within the last few months the following machinery has broken down:

		Cost to us
Photocopier		£80
Car	– new caliper (actually recent identification of old problem)	c£50
Central heating pump	– irreparable (I had another)	c£10
Computer	– uneconomic to repair (so new one must be set up)	c£500
Sewage system (blocked)
Vacuum cleaner	– uneconomic to repair	c£60
Washing machine		c£80
Answering machine	– not repaired
Bathroom heater	– broken pull cord – demounting required
Photocopier again	– faulty but workable
New windows	– leaking – insufficient sealing
New computer	– arrived faulty (under warranty)
Car again	– stalling tendency but workable
(+ tooth – abscess!)

*

I have put aside my writing school course (½ way through) in order to concentrate on the circles booklet, then put aside the circles booklet in order to get a job (unsuccessfully so far), then put aside getting a job in order to concentrate on the computer.**

*All these items (other than the new computer, of course) are c5-8 years old

**[ – needed for the computer-based business, which was still earning money and involved monthly deadlines]

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