{Entering the Lists [continued (4)]}[18th February 1990]

[Redbook7:57-58][19900218:2143b]{Entering the Lists [continued (4)]}[18th February 1990]

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So what is left?*

Well, apart from the writing of fiction as a method of discovery – which may no longer be necessary for discovery, as I am living in a far more integrated fashion now and have discovered much through ** note-writing in this book (although not perhaps the subtle unconscious nuances *** of characterisation by degree uncovered in (eg) [2]) – all that is left to justify publication is the desire to share with others something of the quality of experience discovered in writing the fiction, and which I hope they will experience through the reading of it.

****

It seems fairly clear that to the extent that I have conveyed this quality of inner experience – and the indications are that I have to a significant extent – other people, by and large, do not want to share it.

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Those few who are positively moved by something at least of the quality of the experience do not, it seems, retain the memory of it for long in the bustle of everyday life – and that is something I can understand, since the same thing happens to me.# The majority, I think it is, suffer from a negative reaction – they are stirred to hostility and even aggression by their experience of the book.

*[See last 3 previous entries, [Redbook7:55-58][19900217:1832]{Entering the Lists}[17th February 1990]ff]

**{reading and}

***{!}

****(I am very tired – too tired to write?)

#[eg [Redbook7:3][19891231:1830b]{A Secular Church in a Religious World (1) [continued]}[31st December 1989],ff; & esp [Redbook7:4-5][19900102:1308]{A Secular Church in a Religious World (2)}[2nd January 1990]]

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