{Love, Uncertainty and Emptiness against the Church}[12th October 1989]

[Redbook6:306-307][19891012:1612e]{Love, Uncertainty and Emptiness against the Church}[12th October 1989]

19891012.1612

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Re-reading my experience with the Undine(s),* I was once again aware of that Presence beside me as I sat: and the pure Quality of the Love which they bring. That is the incoming of the Love which is now also outgoing – like Revelation, to discover and to disclose.

And reading the entry shortly before – ‘the beat of Angelic Wings’** [sic]: ‘ they beat against the page, waiting to be let in’ – makes me aware (thank God) that by re-reading the earlier notes I have seen what I have lost in grappling with the Human institution of the Church.

In two crucial words, Uncertainty and Emptiness: the Uncertainty of the Man and the Emptiness of the Spirit.*** Only by matching that Mortal Uncertainty and that Divine Emptiness can I hope to continue the search towards the Truth which is God – my God.

My Uncertainty and that Emptiness have been with me as long as I can remember:**** they are the clear glass# out of and through which Revelation can spring.

*V [[Redbook5:275-276][19880814:1130]{Two Dreams: Of swimming with fair-haired girls}[14th August 1988],ff] 275[,]

[[Redbook5:283-284][19880814:1910]{Undines}[14th August 1988]] 283,

[[Redbook5:285-287][19880815:0040]{Undine (1)}[15th August 1988]ff] 285,

[[Redbook5:291][19880815:0935h]{Undine (2)}[15th August 1988]ff] 2[91],#*

[[Redbook5:295-296][19880815:2105]{Undine (3)}[15th August 1988]&f,] 295

**V. [[Redbook5:266][19880808:2229]{The Beat of Angelic Wings}[8th August 1988]] 266

***[cf eg [Redbook5:336-341][19880904:2022]{Emptiness of the Spirit}[4th September 1988]ff];

[Redbook5:343][19880905:1150]{Emptiness of the Spirit (2)}[5th September 1988]ff]

****[cf [Redbook1:196A][19710206][Emptiness][6th February 1971];

[Redbook1:206][19710612]{Vacant Possession}[12th June 1971]

& cf [Redbook2:129-132][19780829:2025d]{Publication [continued (5)]}[29^th August 1978]];

[Redbook5:126-127][19880527:2240e]{The Burden}[27th May 1988];

[Redbook5:240][19880730:1118c]{A Dream: Of a Psychological Test Challenged [continued]}[30th July 1988]]

#{II. [[Redbook2:372[19850923:0048c]{The Man Made of Glass}[23rd September 1985],] end}

[[cf the prologue to [0]: ‘I become clear glass: invisible, inaudible, I am perceived only through the vision in me of that which is beyond me, or with an indefinable touch. But the vision shifts, redefining reality....’]]

#*[289 in ms, but pages had been mis-numbered and corrected – 291 must be the correct ref]

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