{Love and Sex (8) [continued (3)]}[29th September 1989]

[Redbook6:283][19890929:2152d]{Love and Sex (8) [continued (3)]}[29th September 1989]

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[continued]

My re-readings so far (to IV.120)* have persuaded me that not for the first time) I had read my position as being further on than I am – as being c[irca] r~,** when it was certainly no further than C, and possibly even R~.** But there is tremendous overlap; and different aspects of one’s progress (or personality) may pass a point at different times *** (and take different times to pass) as a part of the whole of the Soul’s passage of that point; and,**** of course, the attributes of each degree resonate circumferentially# and radially#* (inter alia).#**

This dream#*** suggests the possibility of real movement {to,}#**** through and from r~,## implying that the crisis may have passed {or be passing)#**** in a significant sense; and I guess that my acceptance of the invitation to apply for ordination, even though it may not be accepted by the Church (because of the sort of things that I write in this journal,#** mainly), may constitute a formal surrender to Christ sufficient to complete {or at least consolidate}**** the Transformation in a crucial respect. Certainly I am happy: the structuring of my ‘prayer’ seems to have brought that##** about.

##***

*[in these journals]

**[ie r~ near beginning of inner circle, R~ near end of outer circle]

***{The ‘stretchy wriggle’?} [[[Redbook5:112][19880324:2307]{The Stretchy Wriggle}[24th March 1988]]]

****/or?

#[[[Redbook4:63][19870820:1800n]{Circle Relationships [continued(12)] – Circumferential Resonance}[20^th August 1987]]]

#*[[Redbook4:63][19870820:1800l]{Circle Relationships [continued(10)] – Radial Resonance}[20^th August 1987]]

#**[[Redbook4:63][19870820:1800k]{Circle Relationships [continued(9)] – Resonance}[20^th August 1987]ff]

#***[[Redbook6:280][19890929:1130c]{A Dream: Of Following [xS]}[29th September 1989]]

#****<891003>

##[ie r~ is on the inner circle]

##*[Sic – ie these journals, not just this volume]

##**happiness <891003>

##***But strictly speaking, I may well still be on R~ - C, for the most part, and probably am. Radial resonance would complicate map[-]reading here. <891003>

{→ [[Redbook6:288-290][19891004:1242][{Love and Sex (9)}][4^th October 1989],] 288}

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