{Crisis Revisited [continued (5)]}[2nd August 1988]

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The way to turn,* is to seek to Love: by keeping Love as the immediate goal – not something to be put off until convenient – one can turn oneself round, onto the Inner Circle. I do not know of any other way: all other degrees of the Inner Circle, I should guess, are too far removed to be appropriate targets at this point.

I still fall short of this. I started off by inappropriate feelings towards female members of the Church congregation, feelings too easily converted to selfish lust; progressed through a purer love for my own little family here in [CH]: but have in recent weeks begun to realise the extent of my own selfishness as regards other people, e.g. other people’s problems in conversation: I realise afterwards that they have meant nothing to me.

What is required is that generalised and transforming love which I once felt towards all people, **many years ago, before I let myself be sucked down into the abyss. It should be possible to recapture or redevelop it.

*[See last previous entry]

**cf I [], II [] ?

[See [Redbook3:58-59][19870329:1210g](DEVELOPMENT [continued(4)])[29^th March 1987] ]

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